Short history. I was with her 10 years...it ended a year ago but we have stayed in touch. She seems to have no hope. I dont want the crisis people to make her loose her job and haul her to the hospital but I dont want her to harm herself either. I hope Im in the right place...she has threatend many times before to end her life. She even sent me a page once that said how to make a noose...and said she had been practicing. Anyhow here is the letter I got yesterday. I dont want to raise a false alarm but I would feel terrible if she did herself in...she loves to drink and is on Vicodine...please advise... She sent me a few pics and she looked so empty..I tried to advise her to that and get her to think straight...well here it goese....should I be concerned or is she blowing smoke for attention... Here it is....sounds bad to me. This is not a suicide note....I dont know what to think of it......please if you must deleat it at least point me in the right direction to deal with this. What was it you said? Empty, scared, and hopeless? Yep. That's me. I just wanted to use up the roll of film. A picture's worth a thousand words. It's not a dare, or a joke, or a threat this time. I've boxed up stuff, written letters to people. This isn't like how I've been before. Just stop, okay? There's nothing here worth saving. Worth loving. Worth caring about. Just stop and don't make this harder. I just want the pain to stop. I need to figure this shit out, and if I can't because I'm too tired, well, I'm too tired of it all. So just let me either do it or not but the last thing I need is more f#$%^ing pressure! Thanks for trying, though. It's admirable.