I do not know if this is the right forum for this, feel free to move if need be. So I am wondering should I disappear from this forum? I ask this because I feel like I came back for all the wrong reasons. Yes I feel depressed and suicidal. However, I feel that this place enables me to feel that way sometimes. I feel like I come here for attention more than anything. I get it sometimes. The main reason I think I came back was to replace something I lost in real life that started here. I wanted to replace that in my life. What I found here was wonderful. So wonderful that I in fact left, because I became happy. Now that is gone I return? I just cannot help feeling like I am using this place for something nefarious. I know in the end it is my choice. However I cannot help but want to ask how people feel about me staying here? Most of the time I feel like I am out of place and a passing whisper in a sea of screams.