I am 17 years old and my life is a complete mess... First of all i'm living with my mother, my stepfather and my half sister. My father is living in London barely putting things together, and i saw him last time 5 years ago. My mother hates my guts, she never talks to me, never said any words of encouragement or anything like that to me. Basically she told me that i'm a lowlife, a parasite without any future, because i have terrible grades in high school and i'm about to fail this grade. so i have no chance of going to college. She also said that when i turn 18 i'm out of this house. My mother and stepfather have their own baby now and i'm unwanted in this house. I'm fat, ugly never had a girlfriend, never had true friends, i'm socially retarded, which might have something to do with me having hyperhidrosis, which means i sweat a lot. I was also recently arrested alongside my cousin because we pushed a supermarket cart, which was broken and left next to a dumpster, on the street. I live in the biggest shithole of a country called Serbia, where people with college education are often unemployed, let alone possible high school dropouts with criminal records. I'm seriously thinking about committing suicide, because i have no future, and life makes no sense. I don't believe in god or life after death, so that is not an obstacle. I just want to end it.