Should I get help?

[Jewel 24]

I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and I have been managing for about 7 years now. Just recently I have been through some serious emotional traumas involving my mother. I am have been depressed for about 3 weeks now and I have been doing pretty good until recently. I have been considering suicide for two days now. I am not sure how serious I am. My fear is if I reach out for help I am going to be put on a anti-depressant that is going to trigger a manic episode. Outside of suicdal thoughts. I have also been struggling with impulse control. I have been randomly throughing around the house, smacking and hitting myself and screaming for no apparent reason. I am mad the people on tv just because of the way they look. I know that if I reach out to the crisis center here they are going to try and put me in the hosp and I am not sure I want to do that. I am embarassed by the things that I am struggling with b/c it has been such a long time since I've actually been struggling this much. I know that it is going to be a long drawn out screening process and they are going to ask me all kinds of questions and I will feel stupid. I wouldn't care too much about the suicidal thoughts if I wasn't being so impulsive right now.

I need some advice. Should I get help or try to wait it out? I am home alone b/c my dad is out of town for a week.

 

[Lost Forever]

i can't give you the advice, but i think i know what you're feeling, that's really hard, but you can cope with it

 

[Sadeyes]

In whatever kind of treatment you seek, you are the consumer, and you, with the advise of your therapist, can design a treatment regime that suits your desires (within reason). I think it is critical to think of theraputic relationshiips as supportive exchanges...best of luck and please remember that we all have set backs...it is how we handle them that is the critical factor...big hugs, J

 

[dazzle11215]

I think there's nothing wrong with asking for a little bit of help. Make your concerns about the anti-depressants known, and do your research before you make a final decision on what, if any medication to take.

Loads of places are set up now to do intensive outpatient care, so if you need some more supports than once a week counselling they might be able to do that.

You really have the best insight into your well being and I would say just express to your supports exactly what you have written here. Your concerns, and your fears, as well as your hopes for treatment.

Good luck

Catherine

 

[Angelo_91]

Whatever you do, take councelling before even thinking a pill will relieve you of all your problems(unless you are okay with erectile disfunction). I was on the verge of taking pills but i stook with my councelling and dealt with it. I am bipolar too, the trick is to balance the highs and lows and keep it at a midstate or keep them as minimum as you can. It is possible; bipolar disorder isn't the end of the world, many people are diagnosed with it. You just have to give yourself the respect to make the effort to deal with it, and there are many ways to do this. google it up, just try.

sorry if i misunderstood.

 

[Dave_N]

Counseling may be good for you Jewel, but I agree that anti-depressants may not be the way to go, because I remember hearing that some can trigger suicidal episodes. I like being home alone sometimes, but a week is a long time to be by yourself, and since you mentioned that you've been slapping and hitting yourself, it might be a good idea to have some human contact. I never realized how serious Bipolar Disorder is until my sister started showing the signs of it. She's 25 now and she's doing ok. :hug:

 

[Chernarus]

Well I dont know what country state or province ya live in but in colorado USA treatment facilities are no differnt then prisons and they gave me an anti-depresent that makes me feel worse and some sleeping pills that dont work.