Hi everyone, I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts on a somewhat regular basis for about a year now, and just survived my second attempt. I'm currently a junior in college with a 3.672 GPA so far. Unfortunately my depression has really been hitting me hard this semester, despite regularly taking my medication and bi-weekly, now weekly sessions with my psychologist. One of the classes I'm taking is particularly hard, and I'm also preparing to go to China with an ensemble I'm in (we're trying to go pro). Those are some of the main stressors besides regular suicidal thoughts, which I usually have enough self-control to resist/ignore. If my GPA drops below a 3.0 I lose my scholarship, but mostly its just a matter of pride, and the feeling like I can't perform like I usually do in school. I keep asking my psychologist and close friends if I should really be in school right now, and if not, what should I do? I'm stressed because I know I'm not meeting my usual standards, and worried about how other people are perceiving me, despite being a very open person on principal. Sorry for the length of this, but I really want to know, do you guys think its a good idea for me to continue toughing it out, or should I abandon ship?