I'm new to this site. I've been taking meds for depression for several years now and I've been okay up until now. For the last 2 years I've been going down. The last few months I've started thinking about suicide. I feel no reason to live, just getting more distant from everything and everybody. I feel numb on the inside. I want for nothing. I can't think of anything that would make me happy. My days are spent on the couch. I get out of bed, go to the couch, go to bed and repeat the same everyday. I can lay for an hour or longer and noticed that I haven't even moved my hands, arms, legs, or anything. I leave the house maybe once a week or every 2 weeks, just when I have to. I don't even want to take a bath or brush my teeth. I have no desire for anything what so ever. Can't think of anything that would make me happy. I see no reason to be here except my soul would go to hell, and it would devastate my mother. Those are the only 2 reasons I haven't done it. How long will those 2 reasons last before "it" over powers me?