As usual, social anxiety disorder has to ruin everything. I was in writing class yesterday and my professor mentioned that his wife has been having some problems with depression. It is so bad that she had to leave to go to a hospital. He said something like when someone you love is suffering like that you suffer too. I wanted to run up to the front of the room and hug him, anything to make him feel better. I know what it is like to feel depressed and I want to do something to help! This is the part that is really hard to write down but towards the end of the class he came up to me and asked me how I was doing. He usuallly does this and I really appreciate it. It helps to think that someone actually cares how I am doing. I was really nervous though because of SA and I also felt depressed at the same time. I hate it when I get really nervous and I can't think of anything to say. All the anxiety gets in the way of coming up with anything intelligent to say. So he said something like "sorry if I'm bothering you" and then I said "you don't bother me." I wish he didn't think that he was bothering me. I hate how bad I am with people! I wish I could learn to make all the fear go away and just talk to people like a normal person. Maybe it's none of my business but I want to help him like he helps me. I could call or e-mail him but I am not good at talking to anyone. Maybe anything I would say would only make things worse.