Hey to all the wounderful people on this site. To be able to go onto a site and see a wounderful amount of support from different people is over realming. If only the people around me at home who say they care could be as supportive instead of choicing to turn away. I dont blame them for turning it just seems to make the situration so much more worse. To lose people who you care so much about but can never chose to see again even though you know where they are is sooooo painful. Well with any luck this will turn into an hello and not a good bye. My user name should be mixed up or something similar cos at the moment its like having a battle going on in my head. one minute dieing seems real good but then 5 minutes later i seem to have changed my mind. Well at the moments everythings an up. Sorry for blabbing on.