i'm such a sad and pathetic loner that I will die alone...and nobody will even notice that I'm dead. Just shows you how much your really worth in this life doesn't it. No contact from anyone, unless i make contact i hear from nobody. I have 3 weeks left to get this right and I will do it, I am determined, my organs are already bad. and as you can see i'm putting my body under strain from not eating and not sleeping...there's no point in pretending, i'm already dead inside, just my an empty shell remains on earth at the moment. I tried, failed. Sorry. I just no longer have any idea what i'm doing still alive.