Hi everyone, introducing myself. I am chronically sick, almost totally isolated, late middle age and depressed and could go on another 30 years in this state. Get that feeling of absolute dread when I wake up every day, another identical day to yesterday, feeling ill. I guess it is ok to moan on here? I don't usually moan. I just get on with it. I do stuff in bed to distract myself - that sounds suggestive (!) but I mean stuff like using my laptop (no, not for laptop dancing :lol! but distraction wears thin after a few years or so. Anyway, hello.