Sorry for the rant but I'm sick and tired of my rapidly changing moods. Never suffered with this before until recently after recovering from a mixed episode. I don't know if it's the meds masking what's going on underneath or if I'm just really unsettled from the last episode. I'm going from being hypomanic, bursting with energy and overly positive and over involved to tearful, suicidal and full of rage a day or so later. I have switched to suicidal and tearful the past couple of days. It's so tiresome and I feel really unsettled. I also have paranoia on top of this which is frightening at times. I feel like if I don't nip this in the bud soon then I'm going to get very ill again and I don't want that. Im flipping fed up with this illness. I don't want to live anymore and slowly heading towards the point of no return.