If a person was sick and knew that they would never get better wouldn't killing themselves be the best thing they could do? I think it's better than suffering unessecarily. These suicidal urges I have...I've been having them for over half my life. They used to come and go depending on the circumstances. Now my situation is so dire that I struggle with them every single day...for a good portion of the day. It's inescapable torture. Nothing brings me relief. I'm thinking about just giving up. I've tried to get help but every attempt inevitably ends in dissapointment. Every failure leaves me more crushed and hopeless than before. I'm starting to think I should just accept my fate. I'm one of the weaker ones. Inferior. I'm not supposed to survive.