Hi, I'm new in here and tonight might be the worse night ever and I don't think that I'll cope sometime with everything. At first, I was getting help for an eating disorder and than, thing just start getting over me all the time. I was still getting help and trusting people but now everyone of them let me down and now I have nobody to hold onto. I messed up with my life a long time ago and now a realize that I can't get better. I don't see why I should continue to fight when I'm alone in this and that no one really cares. People are only telling bullshit by saying: you are important to me, I love you, I won't cope if you do anything to yourself, etc.. I'm tired of everything and I do think that by getting away all those difficulities will go away and I won't cause any more pain to people that I love. Today two of the most important person to me stop helping me and one told me that I was making her loose time and energy. I'm sick of everything and everytime I have kind of a chance to stop everything, the ideas became more and more present in my head and I think that shortly I'll crack and to something irreversible.. I even thought of a way of drawning in the shower... I'm desperete, I'm all alone with lying people that don't care about me...