sick of feeling tired and lost and empty

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by theleastofthese, Apr 28, 2008.

  1. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    and wish I could just end it all, but I can't do that, so I'm forced to go thru every miserable day. I'm sick of feeling crappy all the time, physically and emotionally. I'm sober now for the last 30 days and am waiting to feel better but just feel worse. If I didn't care about quitting drinking I'd get really drunk right now just to be numb, to NOT feel anything, but I promised I wouldn't drink so I'm stuck with these awful feelings.

    I wish I could disappear forever. no one would miss me.
  2. nagisa

    nagisa Staff Alumni

    I'd miss you. :hug:

    Like I said in the other thread, I'm very grateful to you. :smile: 30 days sober is a great achievement and I'm so proud of you!! :smile: I understand what you are saying about not wanting to feel. Sometimes I want to OD not really to kill myself but to be in that state of numbness. I know it's hard. :( I wish there were something I could say that would make you feel better. I just really hope that things get better for you, hun. You deserve it. :hug: