Just pure sick of being me. Got bipolar, borderline personality disorder and social anxiety disorder and i cant see the point of being alive anymore. none of it will ever go away. meds are all but useless (except 1) and ive cut myself off from psychiatrist, doctor and cpn. psychiatrist really couldnt care less, doctor seems amused at everything im going through and my cpn is an a*se. they all just take the p*ss out of me.
every rule i say about step daughter (all very reasonable) is waved away by my wife making me look the fool. ive got 2 kids that dont stay with me but regardless of how much i try they're just not interested in me. only friend i have is my dog Jinky. ive loved snakes since i was a boy so got 2 to give me an interest and even they dont like me! they go to my wife but when i turn up they freeze or take off and hide, my wife has even tried taking them out and giving them to me but all they do is turn and try thier best to get back to her.
all i want to do is die but cant do that to my dog. i know everyone else would be better off without me even though my wife says they wont be but they juat cant, or refuse to, see the truth.
im not expecting anyone to reply to this. i just needed to tell someone even though i know no one is interested.
just dont know why im alive. my dad died of cancer at 64, he had a good life so why did he die instead of me? nothing in life makes sense
every rule i say about step daughter (all very reasonable) is waved away by my wife making me look the fool. ive got 2 kids that dont stay with me but regardless of how much i try they're just not interested in me. only friend i have is my dog Jinky. ive loved snakes since i was a boy so got 2 to give me an interest and even they dont like me! they go to my wife but when i turn up they freeze or take off and hide, my wife has even tried taking them out and giving them to me but all they do is turn and try thier best to get back to her.
all i want to do is die but cant do that to my dog. i know everyone else would be better off without me even though my wife says they wont be but they juat cant, or refuse to, see the truth.
im not expecting anyone to reply to this. i just needed to tell someone even though i know no one is interested.
just dont know why im alive. my dad died of cancer at 64, he had a good life so why did he die instead of me? nothing in life makes sense