I'm sick of it. I'm sick of my mood swinging many times within one day- one minute I'm sad, then the next I'm elated and laughing, then I'm furious... it never ends and I'm sick. I look at my friends I saw tonight and I know now they'd never care if I died. I don't even have to kill myself, I just have to die and they'd never care. I'd pass from their memory just like a car on the highway... never to return or be thought of again. I sicken myself. I want to talk to him, he who once fell for me, but who I fell for much too late. Now he has someone else! I can't remember that fact. GET A GRIP. HE DOESN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE!!! But I love him now, and oh, how it hurts. I can't rely on him to fix my every need. He knows I'm not okay, but I can't rely on him to help me through my every mood swing. I CAN'T RELY ON HIM, HE HAS OTHER PEOPLE TO CARE ABOUT. I'm sick of everything and the pain has barely started. I'm sick of it, sick of it, sick of it.