So I'm sick of it, I try to confide in my friends, my doctors, my family and all I ever get is crap. My friends always say "what do you ahve to be drepressed over?" you have no girlfriend and no woman problems! Do they not understand what it's like be be alone or have no gf at all to argue or fight with and at least go back too if needed? I"m sick of it, fuck my friends, fuck my family, fuck it all. Sorry if I'm rambling, sorryi if i''ve made any grammar errors, I'm drunk, and this is the let it outs forum. I;m alone riht now, just like i always am, sick of people telling me I have to have woman problem to be depressed. Apparently never having a gf at all isn't considered problems with relationship issues around my area. I hate this hell, this place, these people, and this world. Let's all die in peace. No, i'm not committing suicide or doing anythign, just ranting in the let it all out forum since I'm not usually talkative while sober. It's hard for me to be social, online or offline, so drunk I don't really even care. Sorry if I don't sound reasonable, I don't expect replies, I'm just sick of the fact that most of the people I woudl consider friends live so far away and in completely different timezones. The people I can actually see on a daily basis that would call me a friend are nothing to me anymore, they put their own problems up and are selfish, believing that a person without a relationship can't be depressed. Well let's see, I'm out of all my friends the only one with ajob and bills to pay, I'm 22, they are all older than me minus one of them who is still old enough to work and pay their way. And yet because I work and pay bills I shoudl be hapy. Well fuck them and fuck it all, I hate my friends, I hate them with a passion. I' m weak but I'm not gonna be weak forever, when the time comes I hope they all die and see how strong I can be in time of need. At the same time I want everyone to be happy as well as me, I just want people to talk too who understand. I'd quit drinkilng and all for any reason necessary, if I cared about myself I'd quit for that but I just don't. It's hard to care for myself when I"m useless, ugly, irresponsible, and just stupid. I'm as smart as I want to be, but anymroe I play dumb just to make other's look good, it makes me hapy to see people happy, but makes me depressed to not be happy at all, if that makes any sense. I don't wanna see others sad, but I"m sick of being left behind and depressed just to give something up for others to have. Sorry I'm drunk, drunk as i've been in a while and not around my friends. If i todl them this they'd just criticise me, so fuck them. I'm glad I didn't go out with them this weekend and from now on I think i'll do what I do without them, it feels good not to be put down all the time, yet at the same time I feel so lonely. Anyway, anyone else feel this way? just not drunk atm lol.