Sick of living, but scared of dying.

[capex]

I am stuck in a sort of ultimatum of sorts. I feel no want to live, but the thought of taking my life intrigues me but scares me as well. I have to get lucky with a freak accident of some sort.

 

[windlepoons]

What is the nature of the ultimatum may I ask?

 

[clouds]

know that feeling and probably thats why Im alive today..Its probably not the best way to live but, it is living till things work out in your head

 

[Sadeyes]

What is going on for you? Please tell us how you are doing today...J

 

[Crue-K]

but the thought of taking my life intrigues me but scares me as well.

This is quite normal, we are all intrinsically programmed with a self preservation mechanism. It is for this reason that attempting/committing suicide is not a selfish act, but a brave one. What could be a more difficult decision to take your life. The very fact that taking your life scares you is a good thing, you are on the first step to overcoming your negative thoughts.