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This is quite normal, we are all intrinsically programmed with a self preservation mechanism. It is for this reason that attempting/committing suicide is not a selfish act, but a brave one. What could be a more difficult decision to take your life. The very fact that taking your life scares you is a good thing, you are on the first step to overcoming your negative thoughts.