Sick of the pain

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by White Dove, Aug 5, 2007.

  1. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    I am going.. i am sick of this stupid life..

    i am sick of trying.

    i am sick of those who say we love you when they know damn well they dont... they tell you they do but they dont..

    i am sick of being hurt by them.. they like to hurt me and i am sick of it.. they dont care, they never freeking cared at all...

    they like hurting me , well my friends ( mr and mrs dalton ) you aint gonna hurt me anymore... Your days of having fun and laughing because i am in pain are over tomorrow... you know damn well i am going to do it... i gave you plenty of time, plenty of time to help me ease my mind but you just dont give a damn, well im gone

    YOU HEAR ME IM, GONE... LIKE I TOLD YOU BEFORE , I AM GONE NO BACKING OUT , NONE WHATSOEVER... TAKE YOU PRETEND LOVE AND STICK UP YOUR..... CAUSE IM THROUGH BEING HURT BY YOU.. IM THROUGH PLEADING TO YOU.. IM THROUGH TRYING TO MAKE PEACE...ETC...SO SHOVE IT....

    and this stupid cancer pain is already too much so i got nothing to lose and i dont care what you think of me.. i just dont care anymore... call it evil , i dont give a damn anymore, then evil it will be called and evil will take me ...

    you know why evil will take me?

    BECAUSE YOUR SO CALLED LOVE WASNT GOOD ENOUGH.. LOVE CONQUERS EVIL THEY SAY WELL WHERE THE HELL WAS YOUR LOVE TOWARD ME? HUH , WHERE WAS IT AT? WHERE IS IT? IT SURE AS HELL ISINT HERE NOW IS IT?

    WHERE IS YOUR PHONE CALL TO ME?

    WHERE IS THE LITTLE LETTERS?

    WHAT ABOUT THE CURRENT PREACHER ? I ASKED FOR HELP WITH A HOSPITAL BED, I GOT NO REPLIES, NOTHING, SO SCREW YOU ALL.... I DONT NEED ONE NOW ANYWAY CAUSE I AM GONE TOMORROW...

    I AM SICK OF THIS LIFE..

    I AM SICK OF THIS CANCER

    I AM SICK OF YOU HURTING ME.

    I AM FED UP WITH EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE, ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO CLAIM TO LOVE ME SO SCREW YOU ALL... TAKE ALL YOUR PRETEND LOVE AND SHOVE IT...

    NO WORRY ABOUT NO ULTIMATIUM NOW.. ITS OVER , YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE.. YOU PROVED TO ME THAT YOU NEVER LOVED ME.. YOU PROVED YOUR TRUE HEART.. YOU COULDNT HELP ME EASE MY MIND SO I AM OUGHTA HERE.. YOU KNOW DAMN WEKLL ILL DO IT AND THATS WHAT YOU WANT.. YOU WANT ME DEAD MR AND MRS DALTON, WELL YOUR GETTING YOUR WISH TOMORROW , NO IFS ANDS OR BUTTS ABOUT IT. CAUSE IM GONE.. YOU KNOW I WILL DO IT.... YOU KNOW I WILL BUT YERT YOU JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN TO TRY AND HELP ME STAY HERE SO IM GONE..

    IM DYING ANYWAY SO SCREW YOU BOTH... I GOT CANCER, A STUPID CANCER THAT WILL TAKE ME ANYWAY.. YOU KNOW I WILL NOT GET BETTER EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT, WITH CANCER YOU DONT GET BETTER.. I WANTED TO FIGHT BUT I AM NOT GONNA FIGHT WITHOUT YOU HELPING TO EASE MY TROUBLED MIND.. I CANT DO IT.. I CANT FIGHT BOTH PAINS, SO YOU DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HEL;PING ME TO EASE MY TROUBLED SPIRIT AND I AM NOT GONNA FIGHT THAT AND THIS CANCER PAIN, SO IM GONE.. YOU GOT YOUR WISH CAUSE IM GONE..
     
  2. twilightki

    twilightki Well-Known Member

    "Don't look to the churches, or the big marble institutions, your divinity lies within." - Emerson