I am fed up with waking up early hours in the morning crying for no apparent reason and going over my worse memories. It is annoying and drives me crazy. I am sick of thinking of suicide and being so stupid. I have had enough of feeling worthless and pathetic. The point is what can I do about it? Nothing. I will never be happy again. I wasn't meant to be happy. I wish I could just sleep forever cause I have no point in living anymore. I have tried to find a reason to even get out of bed but there is nothing left inside me that I look forward to anymore. I am not asking for sympathy as I don't deserve it but I just wondered if this is a normal way of thinking when I have depression. Thanks.