Sick of waiting...hate it. Ca

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by mfrieler, Jul 18, 2007.

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  1. mfrieler

    mfrieler Active Member

    I'm sick of waiting to feel better. Sick of waiting to get better friends. I'm sick of waiting to be older. I'm sick of growing up. Sick of this town. Sick of my family. Sick of myself.

    I just hate it. I want help but I don't. I can't make up my mind. My childhood was too fucking lonely to have been able to gain coping skills.

    I'm too afraid to get help but I don't WANT help. I want to feel good on my own, just like everyone's just not fair. I want to do things by me...

    I use to be such a strong person, not caring what others said about me...

    Now I cry every night...

    I just hate it...I just don't want to deal with it anymore.

    It's bullshit.
  2. see

    see Well-Known Member

    Nothing I say right now is going to change how you feel but what I can say is that a lot of us here know how you feel and it helps to talk about it, so hang around and chat a bit maybe we can help each other.:smile:
  3. silent_enigma

    silent_enigma Well-Known Member

    Yeah, I too am jealous of people who are happy-go-lucky about life. But, if you need help you need help.
  4. Blackness

    Blackness Guest

    At least it sounds like you want to get better. Positivity could save you in the long run.
    Last edited: Jul 18, 2007
  5. Snowman

    Snowman Well-Known Member

    I know how you feel.. I feel the same way as you do..
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