This world is very very very sick. My niece 11yrs disclosed on sunday nite that her step father has been sexually abusing her ~ if that's not sick enough she been fighting brain cancer since shew as born, and still has brain tumours...her sick mother, emotionally and physically abused her, comments like you got a screw lose in ur head (this is a child who has brain cancer..very very very very insensitive). Her brother who was removed from he's mothers 3 years ago, I found out was also raped by he's step father. my niece of 6 has a heart mumur that is getting worse, her chest hurts all the time, she gets out of breath even when just sitting down...found that out last nite. Everything is getting worse, I'm not coping...my counsellor is away.. I've no1 to ask for support. I don't know what else to do, I'm worrying about my nieces...I keep having flashbacks. I've self harmed so much lately, and I'm not eating and when I do I will either make myself sick or I am just sick i've lost a stone in 2 weeks, my bmi is now 22.7 so I'm not underweight, still fat. Lifes a mess.....but still I must keep on....although I just wish i was dead, but one day soon I will be that's the only thing keeping me going, is that I will die very soon.