Well its a long story but basically, I am inferior to everyone, I lack many basic things that so many other people have or will have. I don't think life is bad, but just that I am not fit for living it. I'm really so inferior and pathetic and everyone will say I'm not but if you could read my mind and see my situation, you'd understand more, too bad I feel ashamed and hesistant to say exactly what makes me pathetic and a loser. :sad:
Everyone at least around me that I know around my age are happier, smarter, have friends, girlfriends are/will be successful etc and I lag behind them in so many ways. I probably could have been normal and okay, but I dunno what went wrong with my upbringing.
And I really am afraid of death and don't want to make my parents and little brother sad, I feel so trapped and lost, why me? :sad:
I can relate to how your feeling totally. When I was little, I was a very happy normal child and would NEVER have thought like you that I would end up feeling so low, depressed, suicidal. You don't deserve to be suicidal, I know that for sure, this world really is so cruel and unfair to some isnt it?