I feel tired, I feel sick, I just want to throw up. I cant do anything right anymore. I think too much, and then its like I havent thought at all. I like to sabotage myself, thats clear. How many fucking times do I have to ruin a good thing? before I learn! So many things i need to do, but if I cant get the most important things right How the fuck am I suppose to do the rest So many people I have to apologize too ive lost count... I just want to hide under a rock right now and die I seriously dont give a fuck anymore. All I ask is that you make it quick.