Hi, welcome to the forums
@Pirish, we're glad to have you here. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad at the moment.
Beginning to think my teenager would be better off without me. I am a horrible person. A horrible father. Was a horrible husband, son and brother.
As Sunspots says, when you're feeling down, it is quite common to think that the people in your life would be better without you. I know I have experienced that before. But I can guarantee it isn't true - your family would miss you a lot and they certainly wouldn't be better off without you.
It sounds like you could be going through a spot of depression. Are you currently in any treatment for depression or the way you are feeling? Maybe this is something to consider and ask the doctor about.
I hope you feel a bit better soon. Stay safe. Sending hugs

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