im sick of myself and all my doubts, how everybody thinks my relationship with my boyfriend should be over(includding myself) how im in pain because i dont love him anymore and i feel i cant hurt him by telling him the truth. I tried to die before doing it a couple of months ago, and he asked me for a second chance. how can fall in love again when thats something that i dont really want to, but i dont want to hurt him at all. I want to hurt myself instead, i need to feel the razor again, and its been less than a week since last time. WHat am i suppoused to do? moving out of his place? i cant do that. I cant break his heart even if he did that a couple of times before when i found out he was hanging out with some bit** I dont have peace, i need it, i feel if i leave him i wont be ever happy again as i used to be but im not happy now either. all i need its to feel the pain on my skin and yet im here asking for some loving words to prevent myself from doing it.