I'm feeling very sick right now, but I don't know how to make it better. The depression's filling up my head and I can feel it in my body. It got so bad, I literally struggled to breathe. It choked me. It hurt so much. The urge to die became very, very strong. It scared me, so I ran over to the computer to distract myself. I can't really make sense of my thoughts right now. It's too much and I can't think very well. I shouldn't be posting. I want to talk to someone, anyone. I feel like I'm whoring for attention. I don't know what I want to do. I'm confused and sick. This is the first breakdown I had in weeks.