no appetite
don't want to eat
normally, one of my major symptoms of depression...but this time, is it a side effect of my new drugs? why would my psychiatrist put me on a drug that FURTHER decreases my appetite? officially underweight, trying to gain it back, but don't want to eat...
can't go on like this
feel very weak
still very active despite decreased caloric intake
it's 8:31 pm and i haven't eaten since noon...i don't want to but i have to...
drugs have been working wonderfully up until about 2 weeks ago...symptoms returning, including thoughts, serious fatigue, inability to focus...need to sleep more than i have time for...need to focus more than i'm capable of, especially now (exams in 20 days, 11 hours, 28 minutes - at this rate, i will fail)...
freedom in 20 days, 14 hours, 58 minutes...which also means threat of having too much time to think...aka i need to be stable by then, or i'm gonna need more help than i will ask for on my own...
i hate eating alone...hate it a lot...enough to justify to myself that i'm just simply not going to eat if i don't have company...reminds me of my upbringing - the source of my depression...but, i have to eat...i MUST eat...i need energy to study...ironically, part of the exam is on the digestive system...ha!
i do love cheese, tho :Jehuty:
don't want to eat
normally, one of my major symptoms of depression...but this time, is it a side effect of my new drugs? why would my psychiatrist put me on a drug that FURTHER decreases my appetite? officially underweight, trying to gain it back, but don't want to eat...
can't go on like this
feel very weak
still very active despite decreased caloric intake
it's 8:31 pm and i haven't eaten since noon...i don't want to but i have to...
drugs have been working wonderfully up until about 2 weeks ago...symptoms returning, including thoughts, serious fatigue, inability to focus...need to sleep more than i have time for...need to focus more than i'm capable of, especially now (exams in 20 days, 11 hours, 28 minutes - at this rate, i will fail)...
freedom in 20 days, 14 hours, 58 minutes...which also means threat of having too much time to think...aka i need to be stable by then, or i'm gonna need more help than i will ask for on my own...
i hate eating alone...hate it a lot...enough to justify to myself that i'm just simply not going to eat if i don't have company...reminds me of my upbringing - the source of my depression...but, i have to eat...i MUST eat...i need energy to study...ironically, part of the exam is on the digestive system...ha!
i do love cheese, tho :Jehuty: