to hurt myself. I feel like crying. I want to call crisis... to tell them I am not well. I physically ache, and the rest of my body feels like it wants to give in to the voices. But calling crisis is weak willed, according to the voices, and they are trying to convince me too that my parents think the same. The same things have happened before. Them wanting my to sacrifice myself as the savior of mankind. I almost completed when I had both my wives, and my 5 children. Now that they are both gone (It's been 4 years), I feel more alone than ever. I feel so much for them still, that I feel like I betrayed them by being sick in the first place. I just wish this would all stop. :cry: I just want it to go away. My cat and I are left with the pieces. He knows I don't feel good. He has been really lovey ever since I got him. He knows something's wrong. At least if I pass, he will go to my parents. I don't know what to do, but I want it to end.