I wish I was dead so bad right now, is life really worth living if its going to be a misery, its like running a misery business (Paramore) All I have ever wanted is to be happy filled with joy and not left in saddening despair. Day by day, I wonder why the heck am I still alive. I have my plans all the equipment I need and got my letters saying fuck the world to everyone who has caused me pain. If I was a sculpture, I would be alive inside but dead on the outside. I think I have just about had enough of life, I no longer no the meaning of it. I just want to be happy live in peace in the hands of Allah.
If I was to die young I would shower my loveliness amongst all the good and bad in the world want the world to live equally and not fight what ever there religion or skin color, we are all equal inside I wish people would realize that. Not all Muslims are terrorist, terrorist may have Muslims names but does not make them Muslims.
Coping with bullying and constant teasing day by day is hard enough then coming on the internet getting teased more makes my life a lot harder, I've been through so much and am going through a lot more. I self harm for the sake of the pain in my body, make myself sick so I can loose more weight, I'm fed up of being judged by people who DO NOT even no me barely enough!!!
I've always wondered if it was possible to go from dark skin (brown) to light skin (white) Michael Jackson did it, but it had effected him a lot, it cost a lot for him, but he was white. Thats all I want to be. USA's president, first black president, everyone hated him at first now they don't care. But I feel as though I am hated by the whole world.
Life is not always worth living, even though I am a miserable old git, I never deserved to be happy, like a friend told me on MSN people like you deserve to die. He is so right in every single way, I do deserve to. :blub:
I just want to end every thing end my pain, Romeo and Juliet both HAD to die so there family could get a long maybe its the same for me :blub: I just want to end it, I'm sick and tired of this war which I am unable to fight any more.
:i'm sorry::i'm sorry::i'm sorry:If I was to die young I would shower my loveliness amongst all the good and bad in the world want the world to live equally and not fight what ever there religion or skin color, we are all equal inside I wish people would realize that. Not all Muslims are terrorist, terrorist may have Muslims names but does not make them Muslims.
Coping with bullying and constant teasing day by day is hard enough then coming on the internet getting teased more makes my life a lot harder, I've been through so much and am going through a lot more. I self harm for the sake of the pain in my body, make myself sick so I can loose more weight, I'm fed up of being judged by people who DO NOT even no me barely enough!!!
I've always wondered if it was possible to go from dark skin (brown) to light skin (white) Michael Jackson did it, but it had effected him a lot, it cost a lot for him, but he was white. Thats all I want to be. USA's president, first black president, everyone hated him at first now they don't care. But I feel as though I am hated by the whole world.
Life is not always worth living, even though I am a miserable old git, I never deserved to be happy, like a friend told me on MSN people like you deserve to die. He is so right in every single way, I do deserve to. :blub:
I just want to end every thing end my pain, Romeo and Juliet both HAD to die so there family could get a long maybe its the same for me :blub: I just want to end it, I'm sick and tired of this war which I am unable to fight any more.