Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by TheOncomingStorm, Jan 31, 2011.

  1. TheOncomingStorm

    TheOncomingStorm Well-Known Member

    First up, Theres no need to respond (or read further than this) Theres nothing important here.

    I honestly do not know what to do with myself anymore. I can't tell the professionals what is going on, so I might as well just give up and soon. I'm constantly planning, if one attempt fails then thats it i'll create another plan. I have what I need, hell I have what I need for more than one attempt.

    Caleb needs me, I've been seeing him lately - he's been coming to visit and he needs me. Why wouldn't anyone jump at the chance to 1) end all their pain and 2) See their best friend once again. I can hear him right now, he's calling to me...the angels are all calling for me, attempting to 'sing me to sleep' as it were.

    Things at home at the moment are pretty bad, me and my mom always in a constant argument with one another. Its driving me insane and I know its driving her insane.

    I just dont have a clue what to do, so ugh! What is the point in it all anymore?! Exactly, there isn't one. I'm some fat ugly bitch who has nothing going for her here, when I could end it and have everything just like he has promised.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    2ndly you are important so whatever words come from you i will read hugs
  3. me myself and i

    me myself and i Account Closed

  4. texaskitty

    texaskitty SF Cat Lady Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hannah hun I don't know who Caleb is but I'm guessing he has passed away? Its not good that you are having these visions and such as they stretch your grasp of reality. You really need to tell psychiatrist / health team what is happening. They can help you.

    Also attempting isn't the answer. You are beautiful and precious and have a wonderful life ahead of you. Talk to someone huni get some help. You are worth the effort.

    I love you so much,Hannah, and btw I'm always around if u need to talk.
  5. TheOncomingStorm

    TheOncomingStorm Well-Known Member

    You three shouldn't have replied, i didnt post with the intentions of recieving replies.

    And Angie; I'm Lucy not Hannah :hiding:
  6. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    see people do care about you hugs.:hugtackles::hugtackles: