Hi finao,
It’s good to hear that you feel great now…
How did you get the idea of “that in september i will do something really stupid”? What could make you do such a thing without your permission? You know you have the power…
In fact, you will only experience September as "now" when it comes. Can you live in the “now” and not think too much about the “future”? The truth is “now” is all we ever have. Just enjoy the great feeling “now” and let such feeling keep manifesting...
If you feel you need to get something done by September, do what you can now and enjoy the process. You may feel just as great when September comes...as "now"...
Wish you well!