i know that i can feel happy someday. i know that i will feel happy someday. but right now i don't feel happy and i feel as if everything is falling apart slowly. i don't need triggers to feel this way and it isn't fair. these mood swings last for hours. i just want to sleep. i don't know how to handle my thoughts. i have no intention of doing anything, at least not right now. i just wish that i could feel happy. i don't even remember what it feels like to be happy without these stupid thoughts in my mind. i need to get through this fast. it's hurting me. it's like my heart is on fire and my throat hurts. i just want to cry but i have no tears.