Im really sorry about how Ive been lately...avoiding people, not talking much on MSN...etc. My head really hasnt been in a great place lately...Ive been slipping a lot mentally, dwelling on my shit again. I did something the other night I didnt think I would do...oh well. I just feel i make everyones problems worse when I talk. To be honest I really dont have anything worth saying most of the time...I cant help you. Im a fucking 33 year old loser lol..lets be perfectly frank and honest. Look at me for heavans sake? Look how I live...its fucking priceless. This is typical me though, going back into my shell after breathing a little bit..I always do this, its been a pattern throughout my whole life really. I need to cut down my drinking a bit too...ive been basically drinking a 6 pack every day, thats like 2 litres + of beer a day, day in, day out. Its just as well i dont smoke pot or whatever...cause I think id be hitting it hard atm. I guess I could get some easy enough. Im sorry to all those ive hurt, Ill probably come out of my seclusion eventually. Its just atm I dont feel ive got anything to contribute, so why say anything at all? I dunno....my head and heart arent right these days.