Silent Cries *warning, may triggering*

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  1. th3silent0ne

    th3silent0ne Well-Known Member

    This is the first open poetry I ever wrote that was a 5 pages long story. Please excuse the length and this should turn out right as I had copied it from "MS Word".

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    Silent Cries

    Dreams of haunting nightmares shatter the very happiness from the mind.
    Chills sent all over the body. The soul awakens.

    Sun slowly rises, illuminating every subject. Another day arises, bringing warmth of the season. Another day, another journey.

    No desire to wake to the new day’s welcome. With little choice, the body moves.
    Eye’s shut tight, tears begin to fall.

    The journey to school, rather distasteful. Classes, rather uninviting.
    Spending lunches alone, writing poems of emotion.

    The journey home, just as unpleasant. Open the door to an unwelcoming house.
    A house to which one doesn’t call a home.

    Happiness joy peace, shattered by painful memories. Memories of verbal and physical abuse.
    Eye’s shut tight, tears begin to fall.

    Hateful word cut deeper than any sharp blade. Shouting insults like burning fire.
    Sadness and anger building up inside.

    Laying in bed, contemplating. Suicide or self injure? End all the pain or have new scars?
    Not ready to die. Temporary relief will do.

    Live to fail, not fail to live. Suffer from depression, lie to keep hidden.
    Eye’s shut tighter, wiping the tears away.

    Love is forgotten, hate took its place. Emptiness in a broken heart.
    Never ending suffering from the grip of depression.

    No desire to eat, nor desire to socialize. All I want is to be alone.
    Awaiting a better life. Slowly suffering, slowly dying.

    Many say that things will soon get better, but they are unsatisfying words. How much more before complete hopelessness? Eye’s shut, tears keep falling.

    Attended friend gatherings, you never noticed. Attended church, you never acknowledge.
    Crying loudly for help, but silence is all you heard.

    The night time air hangs cold with a chill. Yet warm is the bed to which I sleep.
    A comforting feel before darkness creeps in.

    The moon slowly slipping into the clouds cover. Light now hidden, darkness creeps closer.
    Eye’s close, tears fade.
    Dreams of haunting nightmares shatter the very happiness from the mind. Chills sent all over the body.
    The soul awakens.

    Sun slowly rises, illuminating every subject. Another day arises, bringing warmth of the season. Another day, same journey.

    No desire to wake to the new day’s welcome. With little choice, the body moves.
    Eye’s shut tight, tears start falling.

    New day, same journey, same school, same lunch, same house.
    And so you always know what to expect.

    Arguing parents, nothing new. They’ve been at it long, since I as five.
    Happy family, wish they would separate.

    Things don’t get any better from this. World turns dark with a sense of emptiness.
    Eye’s shut tight, tears begin to fall.

    Head aches painfully. Illness now consumes. Stomach begs in hunger. Falling to the ground,
    In aching pain, begging for relief.

    Hiding my scars and bruises from the world around. Pretending to all that life is fine.
    I cry out silent cries.

    Can you not see my sadness? Or feel my pain? Can you not see from the signs?
    Does anyone even care? Tears fall.



    Dreams of haunting nightmares shatter the very happiness from the mind. Chills sent all over the body.
    The soul awakens.

    Sun slowly rises, illuminating every subject. Another day arises, bringing warmth of the season. Another day, same journey.

    A weekend, how comforting. Heading down to grab breakfast, hearing my parents argue again.
    I can tell this is going to be a good day.

    Call my friends to hang out, they’re all busy. End up spending my time in this terrible place.
    My room is the only place I like to be.

    Time passes by. Somehow I become a subject and involved in the argument.
    I get insulted, hurt and trashed. Ends with pain.

    The chance arrives. A friend calls me up. Coming to pick me up, I leave this hellish place.
    The further away, the better I feel.

    Catch a great movie, eat some popcorn. Then to friend’s house, hang out and have fun.
    It was a good evening, till he noticed…

    Dark is the night. Still is the wind. Everything is silent as if the world were dead.
    Stars hung in the night sky.

    Haunting are the shadows. Chills sent through the air. Pain filled mind, suffering.
    Running… Running…

    Emptiness and loneliness. Depressed and angry. Help me! Self injuring simply won’t do.
    The end is almost near.

    Where I was heading, I did not care. The breath of cool in the air.
    Far behind was a true and caring friend.

    I stop running, pull out a razor hidden away in my pocket.
    Then as scars reviled, take blade and cut deep.

    Dark is the night. Still is the wind. Everything is silent as if the world were dead.
    Stars hung in the night sky.

    Vision blurring, mind failing. Falling to my knees, blood slowly draining.
    Collapsing as my friend catches up.

    What has been done, has been done. There is no turning back. And in my last breath,
    I give my apologies and goodbyes.

    In my own way, warnings were given. You just ignored them.
    So now it’s no surprise that I’m gone.



    Time ceases, yet nothing stops. Fields of green, sky so blue.
    No pain, no sadness.

    No scars on my arms, no aching head. I feel great. Must be heaven. At last I am happy.
    No more silent cries!​
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    How very very sad
     
  3. th3silent0ne

    th3silent0ne Well-Known Member

    Yeh, unfortunately this is me (except the ending part obviously)
     
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