A little about me. Well, I was born in northern Kentucky/Greater Cincinnati area in 1984 and moved to California when I was 2 years old. During the summer of 1995 my mom and I were visiting family in Kentucky and my dad stayed behind because of his work. Then one day we got a call from the the police in California that my father had died from a brain aneurysm. We returned to California to make arrangements to move to Kentucky so we could be with family. We lived in Kentucky until I completed middle school then moved back out to California. That didn't work out so we moved back to Kentucky after living in California for 6 months where I have been living ever since. I wish to move back to California because that is where I grew up and I consider California my home. I dislike living in Kentucky because it is too different from living in California. I miss my childhood friends from California but I'm sure they have completely forgotten about me over the years that have passed. I live with my mother in an old house that we rent out from my grandmother. I'm also currently unemployed. I've never had a girlfriend and my friends here in Kentucky aren't really friends because I don't really hang out with them anymore and our interests are too diverse so I spend most of my days just sleeping them away to pass the time. On top of all this I have been hiding a secret since I was 5 years old. I am a biological male that identifies as a female. I should have been born a girl, I'm what you call "transgendered". I'm too afraid to say anything about it because I've hidden it so well that no one suspects a thing. I've often considered telling my mom about it but I don't know how she would react and what she could do to help me even if I did tell her. I told her once in middle school but she said it was just a phase and that I would grow out of it. Things are looking very grim and I see no hope for the future.