Who does that? Who destroys everything in their entire life? EVERYTHING! family, business, school, finances... everything is gone, and it is all my fault. <Mod Edit :Methods> If it is instant, then I won’t feel or know anything which would be ok. What stops me? Not wanting to involve another human being in my demise. <Mod Edit:Methods> No one would miss me because there is nobody left. If I die in my apartment, no one would find me. It would take a neighbour complaining about the smell that would lead someone to my body. There really isn't anything keeping me here.