Hello I hope this post does not get too long. I am scared because I am starting to feel lost and alone like I did several years ago. In the past, my triggers were my family, my untruthfulness, my lack of self respect. I moved away from those triggers and thought I was growing inside. But they are creeping back Let me touch base on them Employment: lost job recently (no fault of my own this time). outlook for another is slim, but I still try. Family: I have lost contact with my daughter (my fault). I have lost contact with my sisters (tehir fault and mine). Both parents dead. Therapists/Counselors: waste of time--have tried several in the past and none were effective in getting me to help myself. Clergy: not possible God: feel like He has let me down and given up on me as well. Friends: none Doctors/Medical Field: they just like to perscribe Rx for everything. How can they do that if they do not know my medical background? Don't trust them--they prescribe different Rx if another one does not work. Self help/Reading: this is the only reason I am still here on this earth. But the thread I am holding onto is getting thinner and thinner. So, does anyone ever wonder if we are gone from this world, would we be missed? I mean, tomorrow will still come and they go on. Why do I enjoy walking through the cemetery and thinking about how alone dead people are? We put them in the ground and usuallay forget about them. When we are dead, do we really lie in peace? Ever wonder who would come to your funeral? Sorry group, just some feelings and thoughts from someone who is scared and really contemplating on giving up. Very scared here.