My GF of almost seven years cheated on me, AGAIN. Just when things were looking up for us she did this to me. I am completely devastated. I very much thought about <mod edit methods> last night, but couldn't bare to do that to my parents and brother Haven't slept or eaten in two days, haven't been able to work. Fortunately my employers seem to be understanding, would really suck to lose my job at this point. I seem to be temporarily over the immediate crisis, but wow I was so close to doing it. I'm afraid I will feel that way again. I know I need to get away from her forever, but really felt she was my soulmate. Guess I need to grow up. I am 42, way too old for this kind of crap. Maybe some day I can find a sweet girl that will be honest and true to me. Need to focus on fixing myself first. Everything is so overwhelming. I have <mod edit - methods> in the house, guess I should get them out until this passes, but not sure what to do with them. I have struggled with depression and alcohol for a long time. Gonna try to be strong. My Brother basically talked me out of it last night, and I am so grateful for him. Thanks for listening.