I never want to be awake again. I suppose I wouldn't mind being in a lifelong coma before I die, as long as the coma would occur now. Just to slip away into a nice deep sleep and dream about the beauty of my afterlife once I slip past coma. This year has been a horrible year for the most part, although I believe it to be the most important year in my life. I hope that I fall asleep from it soon, forever.