Sleep

[Aerial]

My sleeping patterns are so fucked up! I really need to get on board and go to bed at a normal time. I need to stop staying up all hours of the night wasting my time on the computer when I could be getting more writing done. This is why I am in such a fucking block lately.

Freelancing right now is a joke. Who am I kidding thinking that I can be stable doing this? I am not going to be successful if I keep shunning structure in my life.

First thing. I need to figure out what I will do about G. Do I take a risk and tell him how I feel or do I cut off contact so I can get over these obsessive feelings about him? I think focusing on Canada is not healthy now for any reason. I need to decide soon what I am going to do about this. If I don't, I won't be able to move on and heal. This is partly why I've been sleeping horribly lately.

 

[total eclipse]

You sound like you are figuring things out for yourself good for you. The best thing now is to focus on you and your needs so you can become stable. I hope you have someone around you can talk to a friend or therapist as well. I do hope your able to cut down computer time a bit so you can get back into some kind of structure as well. Take care keep us posted on how you are doing okay.

 

[Aerial]

You sound like you are figuring things out for yourself good for you. The best thing now is to focus on you and your needs so you can become stable. I hope you have someone around you can talk to a friend or therapist as well. I do hope your able to cut down computer time a bit so you can get back into some kind of structure as well. Take care keep us posted on how you are doing okay.

Thank you. You are so right. I do need to focus on myself far more than all of the other affairs I've been giving attention to. It's draining me. I can only take so much.

Luckily, I do have some people I can and do talk to occasionally. It certainly helps. It really does. I am glad I found this site. It will be another tool to help me get my feelings out there in the open rather than remaning below the surface.

I have a lot of work cut out for me when it comes to my sleeping schedule. I should be in bed now. I got some writing done so the night wasn't a total waste as usual. I figure that's gotta to be a good sign of some sort.