My sleeping patterns are so fucked up! I really need to get on board and go to bed at a normal time. I need to stop staying up all hours of the night wasting my time on the computer when I could be getting more writing done. This is why I am in such a fucking block lately. Freelancing right now is a joke. Who am I kidding thinking that I can be stable doing this? I am not going to be successful if I keep shunning structure in my life. First thing. I need to figure out what I will do about G. Do I take a risk and tell him how I feel or do I cut off contact so I can get over these obsessive feelings about him? I think focusing on Canada is not healthy now for any reason. I need to decide soon what I am going to do about this. If I don't, I won't be able to move on and heal. This is partly why I've been sleeping horribly lately.