As the title states that's what I'm dealing with at the moment. I think sleeping and depression/suicidal thoughts go hand in hand. Meaning the only time I really feel safe from my thoughts or lack there of, is when I'm sleeping. It's as if everything disappears and I'm in a safe place free of judgement and pain. So in turn, sleep has become my favourite part of the day, feeling so much relief when it's time for bed. Now having said all that, Im having a hard time developing a normal sleeping pattern. For example, ill be struggling to stay awake yet I can't sleep, and when I do, I tend to only get a few hours before I wake with a thought and become restless again. Also sometimes after sleeping when I awake my first thought is "oh ya that's right I wasn't dreaming....this is my life"