I've been so deep for the last few weeks and so sick the last couple of months... I feel like I finally hit rock bottom and then I realize that I've just landed on another ledge of the emotional cliff then I fall.... It hurts so bad.... They gave me sleep meds to sleep... I hate them..... I want to sleep forever... To be done forever... I am ready and I know my time will come on its own... I eagerly await it...soon