Okay so its been so long since I cut, and I slipped up yesterday, now every day when I go home I just want to tear myself up till theres no skin that isnt scared, I used to be such a heavy cutter like 20 times in a sitting 2 to 3 sittings a day sometimes. It's like during the winter when its easy to cover them up I have no consequences of doing it. And what really confuses me the most is that I havent been sad or depressed about anything in fact ive been very happy with the way things are going in my life so its very strange for me to have these urges but its like wanting to eat after going a week without food I dont understand. And my reasoning against myself is fading and loosing strength because I have no consequences for cutting almost every one knows I do it but does nothing about it. It doesnt stop me from doing anything so theres really no reason not to do it ..............So I guess what am I waiting for?