Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by takencontrol, Nov 29, 2010.
my want and need to stay alive has gone.
Sweetie, you can do this! You can fight,
i will pm you later but in the meantime i've gotta go to lectures (boring :/ )
but you can do it, put something in place so you are not going crazy
i hope you have an ok day,
lots of love
Hi brownie, what has changed?
talking helps, don't give in to those thoughts, :hug:
Brownie, it's Monday already and you've hung on this long. You can ride this out, you're doing so well.
What's triggering you?
the weather is really bad and im worried i wont make it to see my key worker on thu. i need to see her really bad.
If the weather is so bad that you can't get there then talk to her on the phone instead.
In the meantime...don't worry about something that hasn't actually happened yet. Face Thursday when Thursday gets here.
You need to give yourself some TLC. What sort of things alleviate the pain, even if it's just for a couple of minutes?
im just trying to rest as much as i can im still so exhausted from lack of sleep. kids are of school because of the weather so i dont need to go to work and getting much needed time at home but thats isolating me too, i just cannot win.
Can you get some sleep whilst the kids are home? Are they of an age where you can leave them whilst you sleep? Otherwise just try to rest
Tuck yourself up in front of the TV or read a book. Play Gin Rummy with the kids. Anything to keep calm and keep your thoughts quiet.
the kids are all away out in the snow so it is peaceful just now, im playing games on comp which is keeping me calmer for now.
That's good. I find I can really zone out if I keep playing computer games when I'm down. It helps me to hang on through the bad stuff
Stay strong. xxxx
im trying to but to be honest its getting harder every minute.
It is hard Brownie, but you can do it. You're a lot stronger than you know.xxx
im sorry catherine but i just cannot do it, sorry x
Brownie, you can do this, you have to for your kids!!!
Get out of the house, take the kids for a show or something. Anything to get you passed this point.
Please you will only recreate this cycle of depression and suicide, think of what you would do if one of your kids were feeling this way, tell yourself the same, you deserve the same treatment as anyone else.
Come back on so we can talk, is snowing where your at already? Do you like sledding, get out there and feel like a kid again, get your heartbeat going fast, get tired, scream at the world.
Im here if you want to talk.
hi brownie i hope you found some strength today your nearly there your on the same week you need to be in coupla days more and everything could change
im really sorry guys xx
whats wrong brownie youre doing so well?
:i'm sorry:no ive slipped to far this time theres no going back
its never too late while your here brownie you can come back
ive not slept for days and days, im tired, emotional and mentally done in. still not heard from my psychs and i guess im being stubborn by thinking i shouldnt have to phone back to remind them.