I thought I was over this. Its been years. But everything is coming to a head. Economic BS, family troubles, i feel like im going nowhere. The feelings of hopelessness. The fatigue, hell I cant even get out of bed to go to the store. All I can do is look at pics of family and friends long gone. My parents call me, and say I need Jesus. Yea, that helps...not! Ive been clean for four years, I go to NA meetings, and im honestly considering picking up and using. My pistol is looking like my best friend....and the cycle continues....am I alone?