just cut. fucks sake. first time since october... first relapse. my laptop is bust 100% so relying on crappy mobile internet for access to this site. oh man, im not even feeling low. just tonight it kicked in and i knew i would do it. hmmm. here comes what im sure will be a long exploration into my body and its boundaries. im a wimp. i forgot how much it stings im not in it for the pain.