i dont really know why i feel so sad. its starting to get as bad as it had been a long time ago. i dont know what to do because i feel so helpless and in reality i am. i dont really have anyone to talk to and even if i tried to talk to someone i dont think that i would know what to say because its all pretty obvious and i would feel like a dumbass for being so depressed over my own pitiful existence. i feel like i am slipping, in a cliche kind of way. i can see how i was and compare that to how i am acting now and there is such a big difference. i am so antisocial. i dont want to do anything, i dont want to go anywhere, i dont want to talk to anyone, and all that i do is stay in my room all day reading or listening to music so i dont bother anyone. i wish i knew how to snap out of this. i am tired of feeling like i want to cry all the time. i feel so empty.