i feel like i'm going backwards, slipping back into depression.... it's not a nice feeling. there were some days where i almost felt normal. but now? no. i feel like there's no point in doing anything. i don't want to do anything. i can't bring myself to do the things i love to do. i feel like the darkness is coming back, and i feel like it's not going to go away this time. but it's still different. i just feel down. no suicidal thoughts (yet), which is good, i guess, but i want to cut more than ever. i thought i was getting better.