I didn't want to post this under my screen name. I guess the thread might get moved though, in which case I won't be able to respond again. I think I'm participating in my own slow suicide. Eradicating a bit of life force everyday. I don't even want to die, I'm trying my hardest to fight and live in general, but I feel really driven with this. It's the depersonalised part of me that's doing it, so I don't have that control. I can't stop it. I don't think. I'm scared. I'm sorry.